4.27.2011

Distant



Hi mga beki... I'm really sorry for not writing. I'm just disheartened by some comments and an email I received regarding this blog. Super naloka, natulala, naboplaks, nawarlaloo, nawindang at naurat lang ako sa mga kinuda ni Letter Sender. And so I decided to grant his wish.

I'm quitting the blogosphere.





Todo na to eh. I still have some drafts I want to finish as part of my legacy as BM. Legacy talaga?! Parang networking lang. Ewan ko ba, I started this blog dahil sa pagka-frustrate ko kay Totong more than two years ago. And I guess it spiraled out of control, nagkaroon na ng sariling buhay si BM. And now, I feel like I should stop, bago pa ko tuluyang mabuang.

Here's the email of Mr. Letter Sender.




Di ako pala-react sa mga comments. Di ako nagrerespond sa mga followers. Wit din ako nagko-comment sa posts ng fellow bloggers. I may seem like I don't care, but hey! I'm still writing, ain't I?

Pero todo naman ata sa batikos itey. I am writing because I love what I'm doing, hindi para palaganapin ang kabaklaan at kababuyan. Kundi para maipamulat sa mundo na bakla man ako, may silbi ako at may sense ako. There are just things not worth fighting for, I guess. Like this email. Kahit wala ng magbasa, kahit wala ng mag-comment. Wag naman gento mga beki.

Right now, I'm seriously thinking of quitting. There's too much ugliness in the world. I don't wanna add more bitterness. Kaka-depress mga bakla. Please help me out. I'm just so affected by this email... =(

Probably I will just finish the drafts I started, para me maiwan naman ako senyo kahit papano. Pero todo na to, di ko na bet umeksena kung me mga gentong dautera. Magda-diary na lang ako, baka sakaling mapagpalit ko pa ulit sina Mara at Clara.

Bakla na dinadaot pa. Kaloka!

52 comments:

  1. napadaan lang yan BM. if titigilan mo na ang pag ba blog eh parang pinanalo mo siya kung sinuman yang balak kang patigilin.

    deadma na sa mga haters. story mo naman to, blog mo to. wala kaming karapatang husgahan ka... bahala na kami kung papano ka namin i perceive (in my case, landi mo teh!) hehe

    basta stay strong, keep those adventures coming! bading na naiingit sa yo yang hater mo hehe =p

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  2. ha ha ha..papatalo ka ba naman jan BM....nang pa-power trip lang yan....ang sabi nga , what you can't see , can't hurt you...so deadma lang bakla....wag kang paapekto.....inggit lang yan....malay mo isa rin yang blogger na walang nagvu-view sa blog nya kaya ganyan ha ha ha ha....may karapatan tayong i-voice out ang laman ng ating mga puso't isipan sa anumang paraan na gustuhin natin...as long as hindi tayo nakakasira at nakakasakit ng damdamin ng ating kapwa , go lang ng go teh...kaw pah!!!

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  3. I always drop by in your blog kasi ang aliw basahin. It always give me some lesson and laughter. You know what I may not be a frequent commenter in your blog but just wanna tell you that I back read all your posts since the very beginning kasi nakakaaliw ka magsulat kahit na sad pa ang story..hehe

    As what you have said you love what you are doing, so why stop? You've been through a lot of things in life which is worst than that, so why quit of all a sudden? Do not let other people dictate you kasi sila ba ang bumubuhay sa iyo? Yang detractor mo na yan it only means a thing, sikat ka! Parang artista lang the more chismis na walang kwenta, popularity grows. :D

    Life is too short to dwell on unimportant matters and insignificant people just like the hater na nagpa down sa iyo. Andami kung nasabi..hahaha basta BM keep writing, lalo mo pang inggitin yang hater mo. Wag paapekto kasi malinis naman ang konsensya mo diba? Yun ang importante.

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  4. I agree with what they said. I think writing is a gift and you have that. I don't think someone insignificant will just throw cold water on your dreams. Don't be affected with what he said...inggit lang siguro sau yon. I am a frequent visitor of your blog and it always gives me a reason to smile every time I read your posts. Please don't let the rest of us down for just one hater. More power to you BM. Go girl!

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  5. wag na wag ka papatalo jan BM! :)

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  6. this is the very first time na magko-comment ako sa blog mo kasi natakot ako na baka tumigil ka na pagsusulat... i can only speak for myself and i wanna tell me you that everyday akong nagche-check if ever my new entry ka and you never failed to make me happy...please don't stop writing kundi man para sa yo, at least para sa amin na sinusubaybayan ka... don't let this detractor win over you

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  7. stay strong bm!
    dont get affected by that email
    with his email it only shows he is the one from squatter.
    literal na squattet sxa with all those words he used.
    dont stoop down tohis level
    he is just 1 negatively affected by your blog.
    think of the hundreds or thousands you affect positively.
    you bring smile and colors to a majority of your followers
    hope you wont consider quitting. :)

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  8. naku teh wag ka papatalo dian sa animal na nagsulat sayo dami mo kaya napapasaya. di man ako madalas mag kembot ng comment e araw araw ko tsi ni tsek ng malaking check blog mo kung may bago kang entry. pisti yang echoserang frog na yan. kung di ba naman pisti yan e bakit di na lang mag comment sa mga post mo at enemail ka pa ng personal para lang sabihin sayo yang mga nandian e siya tong mas walang kuwenta kabuwiset.

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  9. Naku teh, wag mong pakingan yung h*yop na yun inggit lang yun sayo : )

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  10. di ako pala comment at wala din ako interest na basahin ang comment ng hater mo. common na yun sa mga naiinggit. pag may di sila gusto dadautin ka pero basa pa rin sila ng basa. kung ako sau, wag mong basahin ang mga nega comment at wag mo ipost. hayaan mo silang atakehin. dont be pressured with haters at maging sa readers. don't feel obligated to share ur posts. after all access is free.

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  11. kung di nya feel ang blog mo bkt basa pa rin sya ng basa? nag iisa lang nmn sya wag ng patulan. isa syang inggiterong frog.

    Cheer up BM! : )

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  12. DON'T STOP. We are more than that person who is so insecure and full of negativity. You don't fail to give me a smile whenever I read your blog. Marami kang pinasasaya. At marami kaming natutunan sa iyo - sa buhay mo, sa experience mo and I think they are reasons enough NOT to be afraid of your one and only detractor. Hayaan mo na siya. We are here behind you and maski na isa na lang ang matira na pinasasaya mo (siguro ako yon)it is a good reason to keep on writing...

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  13. hi BM. its my first time to post a comment to your blog, not because i dont enjoy ur blog, i do...but this time i think i just want to tell you something...dont stop blogging...you cannot please everyone, but surely you are aware of how many people are happpy reading your blog. the person who wrote that email to you is just one person...please think of how many loves your writing skills...mas marami ang napapaligaya mo. critics are always be there to say something bad at you, but its always up to you how you want to be affected. take it as a challenge to write better.

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  14. No. You shouldn't stop blogging. Minsan, kailangan nilang malaman kung ano ang totoo—na umiiral talaga tayong mga bakla at nangyayari ang lahat ng kinukwento mo, natin.

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  15. BM, ano ka ba? ibig sabihin ng e-mail na yun, may hater ka na. ibig sabihin, star ka na! you truly matter para pag aksayahan ka ng panahon na i-email ng lokong yun.

    anyway, kung may hater ka, may fans ka rin. please think about your fans before quitting.

    i hope i have comforted you in the best way i can. :)

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  16. BM, i think ngayon lang ako mag comment dito sa blog mo. DONT STOP BLOGGING! Wag kang papatalo dahil lang sa lecheng kups na yun. Sorry ffor the term but I can'thelp it. Your blog simply makes me happy kapag may mga bago kang post. So continue it. Marami kaming napapasaya mo.

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  17. Its an art that youre good at, you have a responsibility to urself to continue with it. You have a story to tell and ur so good in telling it. i hope you dont stop writing.

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  18. Your blog like many others' is a wlecome break from the daily grind of work. Kupal ang detractor mo. idol kita!

    CINDY
    http://akosicinderella.wordpress.com

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  19. teh, maganda ka, at magaling magsulat! maraming nagmamahal sa yo. so ituloy lang ang pagsulat :)

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  20. Grrrrrrrrrrrrr..
    First of all naiimbyerna ako kasi nag sulat ako ng bonggang bonggang comment kanina tapos pag post nag log in error page tapos nawala yung reply ko. Bonggang bonggang 1 yellow pad worth pa naman yung nasulat ko.
    letseeeeeeeee.

    Don't do a Mandaya Moore eksena te, nakakairita.
    I've started reading her (her talaga!) blog couple of days before I have read your blog w/c is around March. Nabitin ako sa phrase na "And Mandaya Moore lived happily ever after. Alone." Imbyerna! Obviously a poetic means of signing off or hiatus or whatever basta.

    Te, you mean everything to me (eww!). I mean you're ONE of at least 3 blogs I checking everyday for updates (Strange fruit and Professional Heckler). Yung ibang kachorvahan d ko mabuksan kasi sa office me palagi at baka maimbyerna boss ko pag binuksan ko manila gay guy tapos yung sa tabi may mga nakabikini na lalaki.

    Enweiz, gawin ko ng nobela. Sorry kung di ako nakapagreply ng bongga sa alam mo na. Natatakot ako sa reply mo at sa mga masasabi ko sa alam mo na, in short baklitang matatakutin ako pero I'm okay kahit na alam mong hindi (eh?)

    All of this will expire sooner or later, baka bigla ka na lang mag expire (morbid ng bakla) and we're left hanging at depress (Charing! Knock on the hard!ck este hardwood), pero if you feel ready to retire then so be it but please find positiveness in your reasons, hindi yang katulad na ganyang hate mail ng troll na yan. Its easier said na di ka maapektuhan nyan but in some level alam kong you're hurt. Sobra. I felt like I've known you personally by reading your blog, kaya kahit na anong move on mo dito maapektuhan at maachorvahan ka pa rin. Period. No Erase.

    Whatever your decision, its yours to settle in time but please keep in mind while smiling that whenever we read your blog, may it be stories or snippets of apologies because your too busy - you've made us laugh and see a world where I can relate and sometimes jealous of.

    Bottom line. Wag ka muna mag quit. Mumultuhin kita sige ka.
    Hihi joke lang,

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  21. wag ka maniwala dyan. nageffort pa talaga sya para lang sabihin sayo yun. e pwede naman hindi nalang nya basahin yung blog mo kung ayaw nya. tsaka kung pangit yung blog mo, wala naman magbabasa e. since binabasa namin, ibig sabihin maganda. ibig sabihin lang nyan sikat ka na. apir!

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  22. BM, don't sweat the small stuff. if you want to stop blogging, then quit by all means, but do so only on your own terms and not because of the say so of some crazy-son-of-a-bitch-moron, who can't even e-mail in English. but of course, we don't want you to stop. so be strong and just ignore the nincompoop.

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  23. BM, anubey. sa paraan palang ng pagsusulat ng letter sender (email sender) masasabi mo na hindi gagawa ng tama yun eh.

    una, aminin natin hindi naman tayo after sa pagka"wholesome" ng blog mo. Pero bakit naman sumikat ang Kwentong Kalibugan teh na nakakalungkot na wala na ngayon.

    PERO, ang gusto ko kasi sa blog mo eh nakikita ko na hindi ako nag-IISA.

    (codeswitch)
    Being gay is hard as it is and it is funny and entertaining to know that others are also experiencing similar gay life struggles.

    BM, i know you're not going to quit. you just need positive reinforcement. But still, whatever makes you happy then so be it. Love, love, love sisters!

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  24. pabayaan mo na lang sya, hindi siguro happy ang childhood nya, and worse hindi happy ang adulthood nya.. I just started reading your blog a couple of days ago and i really find it enlightening and fun to read at the same time. Dati pag walang pictures ng sexy guys, mahaba na ang 30 seconds, close ko na kaagad yung site, hanap na ako ng iba. pero itong blog mo kakaiba.. it really caught my attention.. minsan nga sa office nagtataka officemates ko tumatawa ako mag-isa habang nakaharap sa computer... hahaha... anyway, just keep writing and be true to your readers and to yourself... inggit lang yang detractor mo... more power to you!

    p.s.
    sana hindi mo tinakpan yung email address ng sender para alam din ng readers mo sino yang nanglalait sa iyo...

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  25. haiz ... napagtanto ko na madami talagang inggitero at inggitera sa mundo!

    recently, i've experienced what you're going thru. yun nga lang, sa fellow bloggers ako nakatanggap ng hindi magandang pananalita.

    make it a private blog na lang teh just like what i did... invite moko ha! kung papaano, hindi ko alam. ayokong ilantad ang email add ko baka makareceive rin ako ng 'red letter' mula sa sender mo hiihihi

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  26. Oy BM,
    wag ka mag-quit noh! May haters ka na kasi nakikilala ka na..

    Nakakawala kaya ng problema itong blog mo..Nakakaaliw and it's very interesting...

    PS: may request lang ako..pakibago naman yung URL ng link ng blog ko dyan sa sidebar mo.. Thanks!

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  27. kung sino man sya, isa syang INGITIRA!!!!!

    wag kang umalis BM, hindi mo lang alam, marami kang natutulungan sa pagsusulat mo... maraming bakla ang nagkakaroon ng lakas ng loob na maging bakla dahil sa blog mo... na.e-enlighten kami na masaya maging bakla kahit maraming dautera dyan sa tabi tabi!!!!

    wag kang aalis, fooooootakels ka pag umalis ka... okey.... we labs u BM!!!!

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  28. Ateh, dedmatology na sa letter sender. Isa lang siyang hate ka samantalang sandamakmak ang nagmamahal sa'yo at tumatangkilik sa blogelya mo. Ganun talaga kapag sikat ka, pinupukol ng intriga at mapanira. WOW! Artista lang! ECHOS!

    Tuloy mo lang ang pagbabahagi ng layf mo. Again, D-E-D-M-A sa nega :)

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  29. bakla inamag na yung bulbol ng readers mo kakahintay ng bagong entry tapos ganyan ang eksena mo? Alam mo it's easy for others to hate and hurl disparaging comments towards you. Heck I wouldn't approve of 90% ng mga kalandian mo. But I still respect you and what you do. Iba-iba kasi tayo eh. Wala naman sa atin ang walang kasalanan. I doubt na kalinis-linisan din siya sa mga pinagsasasabi niya. There will always be at least one person who won't like you or tolerate your being gay but their presence should not prevent you from doing what you love. Mas magandang bilangin mo kung sino ung mga nagmamahal sayo.

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  30. We support you, BM. All the way! Just ignore it.

    Although the biatch in me can't help but wonder if this is just some sort of an experiment (i.e., you want to test the reaction of your readers, whether or not they would be sympathetic with you).

    Anyway, I hope you continue writing. Sometimes, it's our only way of making sense of what is otherwise senseless existence.

    Cheer up, BM!

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  31. Noooooooooo! Don't Quit.....

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  32. huhuhu NOOOOOOOOOO!!.. wag ka papatalo dun sa inggiterang hater na yun.. madami kaming nagbabasa, natutuwa at naaaliw sa blog mo.. babae, lalaki, bakla at tomboy nagbabasa ng blog mo.. lahat ng lahi..hayz.. wag syang magbasa kung hindi nya trip.. maghanap sya ng blog na boring..

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  33. Hey BM, I was surprised by the vehemence of the attack against you. It felt like it was almost... personal? Like he knew you and you offended him directly?

    I don't know. But it is strange indeed. Did you ask why?

    Kane

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  34. bm, please wag...

    mas madami kang supporters that haters...

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  35. they add spice to blogging BM let it go...instead....sulat lang ng sulat....tell them they can suck your dick...and balls too!

    ahahahaha..keep kicking ass BM. Dont quit.

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  36. nakuu wag mo ng pansinin yan sis. papansin lang yan. bahay mo to. you can do what you want to do. sulat lang ng sulat walang pakialaman. wala ka namang ginagawang masama eh

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  37. na miss ko tuloy si rose tan at ang kanyang mga pocketbooks

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  38. BM, I've been following your blog for quite sometime now and i must admit, this is the only time im gonna comment on a post out of the many stories you've shared to us. I am a huge fan from Dublin and i enjoy reading your blog among others like misschuniverse,arki-beki,soltero,tristantales,mandayamoore(saan na ba yun?haha),to name a few..

    and this is all i can say..first of all, i feel your pain or perhaps disappointment re the negatron, but BM dont let the haters win you over! wag kang maapektuhan sa mga di maka.gets sayo,mga di nagmamahal sayo coz im sure mas madami KAMI na nagmamahal sayo (isa na ko dun)..pls lang wag kang tumigil sa pagsusulat dahil lang sa mga nega (kawawa naman kaming napapasaya mo lalo na kaming nasa abroad na namimiss na ang mga eksena at ganap ng mga beki sa ating inang bayan.chos!) but seriously,ang haba na nitong comment ko but all im saying is--KEEP WRITING BM, CONTINUE TO MAKE OTHER PEOPLE HAPPY, and DONT MIND WHAT OTHER PEOPLE (HATERS) THINK OF YOU!

    P.S. i'll include you in my prayers tonight kasi naapektuhan talaga ako sa post na ito (ok,,call me a drama queen na but totoo lahat na sinabi ko) :)

    regards,
    marcou

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  39. first time ko magc0mment dito, nagbabasa lang ako dito para makakuha ng aral at halakhak. . BM! Wag ka tumigil sa pagbl0g. Wla namang kwenta ung msg nya puro mura lang. . Im a bi po, im still inside my closet. . Sayang daw kasi. . Hehe. . Yan naririnig ko kaya patago ak0ng nagbabasa ng bl0gs mo at patago din ak0ng tumatawa. . Haha. . Mabagsakan sana yang sender na yan ng malaking malaking ASTEROID sa bunganga! Haha

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  40. isa lang siya, as against, what's the count now? mga 40 comments saying you should continue? o di ba? wag na affected ate, deadma na lang. one thing a celebrity like you should learn is that you can not please everybody. so stay strong, disregard the neagitivity and just promote world peace.... by not getting affected :-)

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  41. don't stop your music
    kung ayaw nila sa tugtog mo, kever!
    ikaw ang may salin nun
    ikaw ang may tamang ritmo
    ikaw ang may natatanging sayaw para dun
    di naman mawawala ang mga daut na tulad niya
    wala tayong magagawa dun
    pero ang pinaka epektib na magagawa mo,
    ay ituloy si BM- ikaw ay nag-iisa!

    mabuhay ka teh!

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  42. BM don't! Wala na akong idol pag ginawa mo yan!

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  43. ayaw niyang lumaki ung gulo kaya hindi niya pinakita ung email address nung sender. kung pinakita niya, eh di uulanin ng hate mail ung sender, at baka mas lalong magalit ung sender kay BM.

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  44. you are better than this BM.. don't stop writing

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  45. hay naku BM, don't mind the haters. madami kaming nakaka-appreciate ng ginagawa mo.. baka ynag taong yan eh walang kasiyahan sa buhay kaya sya ganyan... keep it up!!!

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  46. Hi BM,

    Ngayon lang siguro ako mag-le-leave ng comment,although I have to admit that I have been a follower of yours. Honestly, medyo may katotohanan naman ang sinabi ng nag-email sa u. Minsan din kasi, medyo nao-offend ako sa mga stories mo. But hey, this is your blog. Ang sa kin lang, kung di nila gusto, pwede namang di nila basahin di ba? Ako, nag-e-enjoy sa pagbabasa ng stories mo, so <i continue reading.

    Sana naman, wag masira ng 1 tao lang ang motivation mo to write. Mas madami naman kaming sumusuporta sa u di ba?

    Keep up the good work, BM.

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  47. LMAO... ba't naman binabasa nang ulol na yon ang blog mo kung ayaw nya sa blog mo at sa yo???? Yan talaga ang world ateh, kung meron Bin Laden, meron na mang Bush. Kung may angel andyan rin young devil. May matalino at may katulad ng nag-email sa yo. :) chin up and smile... and more power!!

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  48. LMAO... Chin up ateh and smile. Ganyan talaga ang world kung may angel andyan young devil. Kung may Bin Laden andyan na man si Bush. Kung may matalino meron na man kagaya ng nag-email sa yo...

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  49. keber ka lang jan girl! sulat lang ng sulat, blog mo to, walang basagan ng trip! takpan nya kamo mata nya hehe. more power to your blog! :)

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  50. Ibig sabihin yung nag-comment sa iyo ay nagbabasa ng blog mo. hahaha. plastik naman nun. mukhang inaabangan ang susunod mong isusulat. let them be!

    love the haters!! hehehehe

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  51. I really enjoyed reading your blog posts, dami kong natututunan na beki language hihihi...don't let few bad comments ruin your self-expression. Sa huli naman ano ba ang reason kung bakit ka nagba-blog, hindi ba because you just want to express yourself. Sobrang insecure at feelingera lang yang vakler na yan kaya dedma lang teh...Sobrang award kaya ang blog mo. Apir! Keep up the good work!

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